I feel as if I've been ripped away from the self I've come to know over the years... This piece, which differs from my recent work, represents both a departure and a progression in my life. Making mistakes, as well as coming to grips with those mistakes, has always been a challenge for me. My work represents my desire to preserve as much control over my practise and personal life as pos sible. While striving for perfection or just pleasing others can be motivating and enjoyable, feeling bound by this ideal might feel more like a crutch or protective mechanism than an authentic way of being.